Saturday, August 15, 2009

Trying Times

It has been awhile since I've posted a blog. As I sit in the hospital, together with my family during a very stressful and trying time I am reminded how lucky I am to have what I have.

My brother Gus is sick. My dad has been sick. This has been the story for the last two (plus) weeks. My dad goes to the Emergency Room.... Gus goes to the Emergency Room. My dad got released Thursday, Gus was admitted Friday. Unfortunately, my brother has not followed my dad's lead of a quick trip.

Without going into a lot of details, (I'm sure I would if you called me) Gus is battling a substantial mass of bacteria under one of his heart valves. It doesn't sound good because it's not. BUT it's treatable and we are treating it, as best we and our doctors (the cardiologist, the infectious disease specialist, the cardio surgeon, the neurologist and many nurses) know how.

The doctor I get the best vibe from said, "in medical there is no black and white, only different shades of gray." I agree completely. In this week there has been no black or white. Good seems to be aiding the bad and vice versa.

I don't have much to share, as uncommon as that is I find this poem to be fitting.

A Strange Wind
by Shel Silverstein

What a strange wind it was today
Whistlin and whirlin and scurlin away
Like a worried old woman with so much to say.
What a strange wind it was today.

What a strange wind it was today.
Cool and clear from a sky so grey
And my hat stayed on but my head blew away
What a strange wind it was today

Many families have been in the shoes we are wearing now. These shoes are ugly and uncomfortable, but I'll wear them as long as we get to our destination of Gus walking out of here a healthy 22 year old boy like he was 3 weeks ago.

Back to the lucky part. I know I am. Here is what else I know...In my possession, I have

A wonderful family.
Caring and giving friends.
Strangers sending prayers and positive words.
Support from my employer.
Capable and knowledgeable medical staff.
Hope and sincere gratitude.

I can give you one heck of a tour of the cardiac if you like.

1 comment:

Arlene Salyards said...

Melissa, You are right, you are in a valley in your life that no one wants to travel but the Lord places us there sometimes. I don't know why and I will not even venture an explanation but I do know that through faith you and your family will get through this. There are so many prayers being sent your way. It sounds as if Gus is on the road to recovery. At least we will continue to pray for that. God bless you.